Intro -- Title -- Copyright -- Dedication -- Contents -- what i found -- Apricot jam -- Hiatus -- Familiars -- Polite conversations -- Childhood maladies -- The white room -- ice cream headache in my bone -- half-life -- With my whole heart -- Strange fish -- Mouthfuls -- Flying north -- Rapture in the dark -- Amputee -- Guillotine -- Headlines -- Police line -- Secrets glimpsed between -- SweetBitter -- Tongue -- Horse -- The news -- Don't mention the war -- The mountain -- The baker's insomnia -- The prosecution rests -- Level minus three -- Jakkals trou met wolf se vrou -- Mosi oa tunya -- Crush -- Freedom song -- Common wealth -- Cradle of humankind -- No miracle -- Foundation -- Erratic poetry -- Elegy for jazz -- False spring -- Hartelus -- Bones -- Doorbell -- Unsung -- coming to grips with Chinese -- Cleansing element -- Road music -- like jesus -- Repeat after me -- Author's Note -- Acknowledgements.